Surrender & Soul

The new mini-course & some end of year love ♥

The last few weeks have seen the publishing of Healing Her (vol. two) - Poetry that heals the soul through Divine Surrender. Finally catching up on some well-needed rest.

Dearest Friends,

How is your Heart? Have you begun to think about what next year might have in store for you?

2023 will be my year of less.

I will be subtracting accumulated information like splinters from my body.

Rather than adding more shards of knowledge, I will be leaning as far as I possibly can back into the round corners of my wise and wild knowing.

This will be my year of Surrender; my year of consciously collaborating with the great grace-bearing capacity that has helped me resurface from the depths of tremendous grief and emotional warfare that caught me off-guard this year.

Because knowing more hasn’t healed me, but the subtraction of external information has been a power beyond measure.

What we see in the ink is what we see in the world.

Knowing more has in essence painted me a picture… a very chaotic and messy work of art with lots of blurry images that apparently defines who I am. But as we all know - art is open for interpretation. And as anyone who’s burnt daylight hours in a therapist’s room knows, what we see in that ink is what we see in the world.

I have lived this year in a state of total panic because I spent months trying to make sense of what I saw in that picture. I have lived in perpetual anxiety this year because I believed I just needed to find the right thoughts that would help me see things differently, and feel differently.

Knowing more didn’t give me a way out, it put me in a system where I was given a label and a roadmap that looked nothing like who I was or where I was going.

What is offering an immense amount of freedom right now is stepping away from the idea that I need to fix anything, and letting go of the idea that thinking differently is what’s going to save me.

What is helping me more than anything is intuitively knowing that I am not a static piece of art for others to ink out - not even I am capable of fully interpreting the multiple layers of who I have become on the outside.

What I am remembering is there’s no such thing as normal and that means that there is no one size fits all remedy that will heal everyone.

Our path back to wholeness is as intimate and unique as we are.

Instead of spending my life trying to make this messy picture look better, I’m walking away from it.

I am choosing to follow a non-personal kind of truth, an ultimate truth. One that reminds me that I am not the contents of my thoughts, emotions, or habitual patterns - I am not trauma, nor its symptoms. I am not my own resistance to life, nor the disconnect that comes from our wounded collective or unresolved ancestral energies.

I am. And that really is all I am.

Surrender is the highest path we can walk, dear friend.

This is why I am offering a free mini-course in January based on the new Healing Her book which is the book I wrote throughout the journey of healing complex PTSD and dissociation through surrender.

This mini-course will help us start the year from this place of conscious collaboration with what is always working with us, above the undercurrent of personal struggle. No need to do anything if you’re already subscribed and paid members will get the introduction of the book in audio format, as well as journal prompts from each lesson.

Can’t wait to see you there and thank you for staying with me this year - thank you for staying with you this year,

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Would you like to start the mini-series with your own copy of Healing HER? It’s available now on Amazon. Thank you for supporting a self-published artist.

Editing old-school style. Creating flow by seeing it in physical form.