Rewilding the ache

A little piece of hope for all those experiencing anxiety

The weeds we wish to uproot may be better left to nature to rebalance within us

To my fellow Wild-Folk,

Every word I offer you reflects what I’m experiencing in my own life and when I don’t share anything for a while, it speaks volumes too. This is a vulnerability I often try and trick myself out of by forcing myself to be even more productive. But there comes a point when the body no longer listens to you - and all you can hope for is self-permission to rest.

I will leave you with something from my journal that might be of solace to you just in case you are too in cahoots with fear.

Stay well,

Sez

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Rewilding the ache

You don’t need to find the reason.

You don’t need to dive into the depths of your soul to find out why you are so anxious, why you feel so sad, why this all feels so hopeless.

You don’t need to find the reason.

Stop the excavation, and leave the bones.

Stop digging up the black well and give rest to the graves of others’ wishes.

Stop the spade, the rake, and hoe and leave the garden to her weeds.

You don’t have to find the reason.

Because knowing the reason won’t cure you- it will just give you another boneyard, another well, another thick creeper with its raveled-up roots…

Leave the thorns and the weeds to the wilder garden and nurture yourself forward.

You naturally weed ache out of the flower bed by rewilding yourself and this means allowing everything within you to grow in balance with everything else.

The weeds will begin to mother the butterflies and feed the bees. Your dandelions and thistles will begin to offer you medicine and their unassuming beauty might just leave you awe-struck one day.

Make your beauty taller.

Make your wholeness thicker.

Make the silently stretching arms of your body bend towards the light.

You don’t have to root out the reason for your longing, for your ache, for why this moment isn’t enough - but foster the growth of greater goodness, allowing the outreaching eaves of presence to cast itself over all.

Everything else will naturally fall into the undergrowth, enriching the mulch.