It isn’t uncommon for me to read your words and feel viscerally as if someone whom I’ve never met is inextricably linked to me in a way that my separately-conditioned brain just doesn’t (yet) quite comprehend.
This morning when discussing with my partner our day’s plans--which, here in downtown Chicago, require us venturing out into the cold, gray, slushy, post-blizzard mess of the city to view several overpriced units closer to our son’s school--I was feeling overwhelmed, to say the least. Some of the overwhelm has been obvious, since we’re anticipating moving for the 5th time in less than 4 years:-/
But most of the overwhelm I’m feeling is, as usual, fueled by a deeper fear. My/our growing awareness of how much individual and combined intergenerational trauma as a couple has fueled so much unnecessary struggle in our own family, struggle which has impacted our precious son more than either of us wants to admit, has led the risk of making another “bad” living decision as his parents to feel somewhat larger than life.
Yet, minutes before reading this beautiful poem, I shared with my partner an inspiring passage I’d been reflecting on from Thomas Hubl’s book, Healing Collective Trauma:
“From the mystical perspective, this is an essential principle of grace and is always true. The future indeed has the power to rewrite the past. In fact, when we integrate shadow or trauma, we’re utilizing this principle because healing past energy creates a forward ripple effect.”
I can’t explain even a tiny fraction of the infinite healing I’ve felt in the past 6 months by connecting more deeply with you and the Mystery connecting us all through your work, Sez. But I pray these beautiful seeds of grace you so freely sow with your words here are reaped back exceedingly, abundantly, and infinitely for you, for everyone you love, and for every single life like mine you’ve touched so deeply with your faithful work.
Grace, what a profound message to be the witness of. It has so much compassion for the shared humanity we all struggle to make sense of. The fact you are so aware of what's at play within yourself, your partner and your son is beyond what most can comprehend. Know that this alone is the fertile ground to which, like you say, the future shall rewrite the past. I'm in awe of how you are walking through the uncertainty, knowingly. This is enlightenment. It's not something somewhere better than here, but now, in this moment just as it is - with full acceptance, unbound from what the mind says about it. It's almost too simple to believe this is it - that nothing need to change in order to truly know yourself as peace, love and stillness - but there you go - and here it is. I'm as bound to your journey as you are of mine, so thank you for taking the time to contribute in such a meaningful way dear friend.
Thank you for your message As someone who has proclivity towards self pity, I got about 20 words in and sat bolt upright.And remembered when we truly listen to another’s story told from heart we are neither alone nor selfish beings at our core. I hope you can feel that, I’m sure you do x
(Wouldn’t be surprised if you’re already familiar:-)
Thinking about it in this context, I often feel like I am with family here. And that consistent feeling of coming home (especially when my physical address has been so inconsistent!) is in itself tremendously healing. Thank you so much for being so honestly here with me/us, Matthew. And for reminding my mind of what my soul has always known: we are definitely not alone.
Thank you Grace, no I had not heard that recording.I was introduced to Sezs work by a yoga teacher who would choose a meditation for after class from insight timer.As we know, Sez’s work has a resonance that gives our souls complete permission to simply marinate in our own knowing.
Oh Sez! Thank you for this beautiful poem that pulls me inward while standing in the midst of ordinary daily activities. As always , thank you for you insights.🙏🏻
It isn’t uncommon for me to read your words and feel viscerally as if someone whom I’ve never met is inextricably linked to me in a way that my separately-conditioned brain just doesn’t (yet) quite comprehend.
This morning when discussing with my partner our day’s plans--which, here in downtown Chicago, require us venturing out into the cold, gray, slushy, post-blizzard mess of the city to view several overpriced units closer to our son’s school--I was feeling overwhelmed, to say the least. Some of the overwhelm has been obvious, since we’re anticipating moving for the 5th time in less than 4 years:-/
But most of the overwhelm I’m feeling is, as usual, fueled by a deeper fear. My/our growing awareness of how much individual and combined intergenerational trauma as a couple has fueled so much unnecessary struggle in our own family, struggle which has impacted our precious son more than either of us wants to admit, has led the risk of making another “bad” living decision as his parents to feel somewhat larger than life.
Yet, minutes before reading this beautiful poem, I shared with my partner an inspiring passage I’d been reflecting on from Thomas Hubl’s book, Healing Collective Trauma:
“From the mystical perspective, this is an essential principle of grace and is always true. The future indeed has the power to rewrite the past. In fact, when we integrate shadow or trauma, we’re utilizing this principle because healing past energy creates a forward ripple effect.”
I can’t explain even a tiny fraction of the infinite healing I’ve felt in the past 6 months by connecting more deeply with you and the Mystery connecting us all through your work, Sez. But I pray these beautiful seeds of grace you so freely sow with your words here are reaped back exceedingly, abundantly, and infinitely for you, for everyone you love, and for every single life like mine you’ve touched so deeply with your faithful work.
Grace, what a profound message to be the witness of. It has so much compassion for the shared humanity we all struggle to make sense of. The fact you are so aware of what's at play within yourself, your partner and your son is beyond what most can comprehend. Know that this alone is the fertile ground to which, like you say, the future shall rewrite the past. I'm in awe of how you are walking through the uncertainty, knowingly. This is enlightenment. It's not something somewhere better than here, but now, in this moment just as it is - with full acceptance, unbound from what the mind says about it. It's almost too simple to believe this is it - that nothing need to change in order to truly know yourself as peace, love and stillness - but there you go - and here it is. I'm as bound to your journey as you are of mine, so thank you for taking the time to contribute in such a meaningful way dear friend.
Oh my , yes yes and yes
Thank you for your message As someone who has proclivity towards self pity, I got about 20 words in and sat bolt upright.And remembered when we truly listen to another’s story told from heart we are neither alone nor selfish beings at our core. I hope you can feel that, I’m sure you do x
I’ve thought a lot about Sez’s short “Kinsfolk” meditation on Spotify since joining the Substack community.
https://open.spotify.com/episode/5WVkLkgrg1Ok6n5v2tGs2P?si=z0efKniITWiJApW3RpIUUw
(Wouldn’t be surprised if you’re already familiar:-)
Thinking about it in this context, I often feel like I am with family here. And that consistent feeling of coming home (especially when my physical address has been so inconsistent!) is in itself tremendously healing. Thank you so much for being so honestly here with me/us, Matthew. And for reminding my mind of what my soul has always known: we are definitely not alone.
Thank you Grace, no I had not heard that recording.I was introduced to Sezs work by a yoga teacher who would choose a meditation for after class from insight timer.As we know, Sez’s work has a resonance that gives our souls complete permission to simply marinate in our own knowing.
And it is here ,we find all that is necessary ❤️
I think I just found my tagline Matthew! "giving souls complete permission to simply marinate in our own knowing" Love :)
We are in agreement, my friend❤️
I do! And we are truly wonderful, accompanied beings, Matthew! :)
Oh Sez! Thank you for this beautiful poem that pulls me inward while standing in the midst of ordinary daily activities. As always , thank you for you insights.🙏🏻
Thank you Carla! The honor is mine, truly. Love Sez