If my life begins to wane into its own disappearance and I am granted, by the pity of Grace, just one more day to re-live from my past, I’d ask for a day with you. And not that day we hid in the wildflower field, nor the one the Moon pooled into a pearl and we swam until our skin turned silver… I’d ask for a day that was thoroughly mundane, where we flittered between boredom and restlessness, and rolled around the house like lost Pac-men. I’d ask for a wandering drift of a day; a forgotten dreg of a day - too gritty to have kept. And mottled in its own idle, I’d re-live this day knowing it was already lost, already swept under memory’s rug, and gobbled up by the maw of time… But I’d live the trite of this day with you in utter awe; in bewilderment of your being. And every dreary moment would be absorbed into the reckless magic of your presence. Your hands would be prayer-rubbed; polished down smooth between my own. And every common word you spoke would be like a poetry-laden bee landing on my heart. And when it was over I would willingly go knowing I never needed anything to be extraordinary to remember how remarkably I loved you.
A Quiet Invitation
Fast-scroll through your photos on your phone or computer and randomly land on one image. Contemplate the day this photo was taken and imagine how it would have been different if you knew it was your last. Share your reflections if you feel called with us in the comments.
My ‘random image’ is above the poem :) I’m collecting mushrooms with my daughter in the Danish forest her grandmother grew up in. I would re-live it infinitely slower, something I am offering myself today.
Poetry for Self-Inquiry
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This was the perfect invitation for me today.. after a walk in the woods. It’s where I always feel the presence of my mom, who died in February.
So I went back to the photos/video of her last month with us. Long hours of watching her sleep, playing clips of my daughter singing-something that always brought her out of her confusion. Her doggie Sherman with his paw on her hand, how her hands looked when she’d pet his huge head. Ordinary days, soaking up so many details because I could feel time running out. I feel so grateful for these memories, and to have the ability to savor them again today. And I kind of miss how those hard days brought “real” life into focus.
Your photo is absolutely precious.. I felt every word of that poem, as a mom letting go of my “adult” kids. ❤️
Sez you had me in tears